anger

today is just another screwed up day for me. the whole day started on the wrong note. why on earth would i mess up my tutorial timings? the worst part is i only realized it after i receieved my friend's message to ask me where i was. so in the end, i went for a tutorial with just the questions and did not go to the one which i rushed the questions till 2am. STUPID!!!!!

there is so much anger boiling within me now. i simply cannot understand why others can look at the same matter as me, but have an innocent viewpoint of it. on the other hand, i am digging behind the words and actions to seek truth. are they just plain nice or am i thinking too deep into matters? how i wish all my intepretations have been wrong all this while. at least i can convince myself the world that i am in now is peace loving and friendly.

why am i so not tactful with my words and actions sometimes? i am not the best friend unless you really know me inside out. it is always after i had flared, i realised i was wrong. i should not have done that given under the same situation again. oh my! i just hate this temper of mine for barking at my friends more than once today.

why cant u just stop critising others and reflect on yourself. that little gesture is not going to change much unless you start to do something with this nasty character of yours. if you think it is that easy, do it yourself. dont complain when others are doing your share of workload. you should feel thankful and not critize them. if you are not going to let others feel appreciated, they are going to think twice about helping you again.

it is just so frustrating now. i want to sleep my night away and only wake up on sunday. this week started on a wrong note and this sets the mood for the rest of the week. argHHHH!!!! boil me to get rid of the anger inside me.